Yes, I am a 9 pointer…
“Hey how much did you study?” The usual question I face like two weeks before a sessional “Nothing… I have not even started” is my reply… “You are a liar! Must have completed the course…” … some even add ‘bitch’ to it… some say it on the face some behind my back… Damn! That’s what I am rewarded with being a 9 pointer… A wonderful adjective which beautifies my name stupendously…
It’s not that difficult to become a so called “9 pointer” as playing its role is… I am fed up… Frustrated at the sight of eyes full of expectations, competitions… Fed up with the way I am gradually changing into a bookworm… I was a girl who always believed to read just to learn and gain some knowledge… I love reading but frankly speaking that aim is lost… Marks Marks Marks… seeing everyone running behind it, I have also started chasing the glory… the fame… absolutely forgetting the fact that I am phobic of either being alone or being with the crowd… Unique and successful people are the ones who lead the crowd or are at a height which other people crave for but I don’t want to become either because they are the people who stand alone… I am scared… I think I am changing… becoming mean and bitchy… and manipulative… becoming revengeful and the reason is I have tasted the fruit of being famous and I love it… anyone will…
“What have we come here for?” is it just placement, grade and jobs? If your answer is yes… we are very different… I came here to see and know the world… I came here to become smart and independent enough to lead my life tactfully… I came here to learn… Learn how to become a civilized, well behaved and socialized gal… to have a personality, even if not admired yet accepted gracefully by all… And when I have realized this, I will lead my path in the way I like… I loose the temptation of being a 9- pointer…
13th April'08
2 comments:
Hey I really wish I had read this one back then... when you posted it... would have had some good comments to add.. Anyways I guess you have moved past all that now.. Most things are as important as you make them to be you know...
Yes, u r ryt... U were always ryt it's only today that I understand what u meant! =)
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